Losing a Friend

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MAGFEST: 23-26 January, National Harbor, MD
Table stuff fell through, so I'm just going for the video games and music

Katsucon: 13-15 February, National Harbor, MD
May go, may not. If I do, it will likely only be for a day.

BronyCon: 7-9 August, Baltimore, Maryland
Submitted a request for a table. Won't know whether or not I got it until mid-March.

Any other conventions are pending time, money and interest.

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I DO take requests in that I will entertain any request. Whether or not I will actually work on the request is another matter entirely. The fact of the matter is that a request is just that: a request; something that you would like to see me do. This said, I am under NO obligation to do it at all.

If you're still here and want to request something from me send me a note or email and then wait. I will either do it or I won't. If you ask me whether or not I got your message about the request, rest assured that I have and that I have at least skimmed it over and am considering it. Good ways to ensure that I will NOT do your request include, but are not limited to:
- Requests that are outside of my interests (take a look at my gallery and faves to get an idea of what those are).
- Requests that put my characters outside of what they normally do or suggest that they behave differently than how they normally would.
- Badgering, pestering or otherwise being a nuisance is a quick way to see your request sent to a quantum singularity never to be heard from again...you are on my time and I've got stuff to do.
- Should a request actually get completed, you accept it as-is. Period.
- Friends, family and business partners get special dispensation and are far more likely to be considered. Those people know who they are...and no, just because you are on my 'Friends' list here or are watching me does not make you my friend by default.

If you find that these terms are unreasonable, then put some money on the table and commission me. You will find that I am MUCH more reasonable and FAR more inclined to bend over backwards for you.

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I didn't want to do it, but I had to…

…sounds like a really lame excuse, no matter how many times I say it. Explaining the situation only makes it sound like I'm trying to legitimize what I did… what I had to do...

...I had to kill a friend...

Luna, possibly the sweetest, most laid back (though prone to spazzing out with hilarity at times) cats I have ever seen had cancer. I don't know what kind; I just know that it was the sort that just does not go away. This isn't the first time mind you. Back in August, she had a tumor that was about the size of a fist on her back left leg. I had it removed and the vet advised that this was the sort of thing that would likely come back and even then he advised euthanasia or amputation.

I did nothing then because there was hope that it wouldn't come back.

It did, and with a vengeance.

…I then learned that because Luna had not been eating for a while, she had likely gone into liver failure or something, meaning that she would not eat no matter what. Worse part is, is that apparently cats can live for a stupid-long time on just water (about a month or more), meaning that Luna would starve to death rather than just go quietly.

I can't imagine that… just sitting there, starving. Even when food was present, she refused to eat…

I had to put her to sleep. I couldn't bear to think about her wasting away in that type of pain and suffering.

I held and cuddled her in the vet's office…

…the only consolation was that she was purring as she died…

…and despite the fact that I know that she isn't suffering anymore, that I made the most humane decision given the situation and that she was reasonably comfortable and content in her last moments, it still doesn't change the fact that I killed a friend…

…and it hurts…

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